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So now her emotions are running high and she is panicking because of what her future son had told her little apa. So now in her head she is wondering, what now? Am I even good enough for him, what is he going to think about me? And in her head she thinks, am I crazy, I mean he is 31 and she is in her 40s.  

But she knows that he is the one. She knows that she wants to spend the rest of her life with this man. But she already told apa about the dreams and visions and apa said ok, sounds good, but he didn’t give her anything else after that, so she doesn’t know how to feel or to keep pushing along with it. How was she supposed to compete with a 25-year-old woman? But little apa said, if she doesn’t have him it will change the future.

Secretly, apa is 31 but he likes older women. She doesn’t know that because they have only known each other for a few  weeks. She felt a lot deeper in love with him than he felt and  she knows it but didn’t want him to know. She made that secret doctor’s appointment without him knowing and while she was at work, she started to think am I crazy because we never even fully had a talk if we are even together. Is he my boyfriend? Am I his girlfriend? 

Everyone at her job knows she loves him to death but apa and her never had never talked about it. But everyone knew if you even bring up her apa, or talk about him around her, she would get  emotional and defensive over him.

She thought, how do I stop the future from changing?  Because she knows she’s in her 40s but she wants to be with this  31-year-old sexxxy handsome smart intelligent exquisite man with  a beautiful forehead for the rest of her life. And for the past few  weeks she has been watching him, the way he is, the way he acts  with his kids, the way he calls his family—the forehead family— like the addams family.

But she loved it.

She wanted to be his queen of the family. She wanted to be a part of the family. If he would just give her a chance, she would  never mess it up. She would be his addams family queen or his forehead queen even though she is older.

She had never been so sure or wanted something so much  in her life. She didn’t judge her apa because he made a few mistakes and has been in prison. He’s different, like no man she has ever been around before. Her heart never felt this way ever in her life. She thought, I really do love this man, how do I get him to see it or  know it? Then she thought, maybe I should get some advice from one of my friends.

So she explained all of it to her friend the next morning. It sounds crazy but I can’t help it, the heart wants what the heart wants. And her friend sees and understands and tells her, you’re in love, I can see it in your eyes. She said, what do I do? Her friend says, well. But before her friend got a chance to answer, her eyes light up and she says, I really want to be his forehead queen, his addams family queen.